It has been nearly a year and yet, I still feel like an outsider. I know each one of them, but they have no idea who I am or that I even exist. I want to tell him so much how I feel about this, but I can't. It's my fault--I can't face them anyway. I'm too scared. I still have that feeling that he only settled for me. There's a whole lot of better ones out there, but he settled for me. They are a beautiful family, and, yes, I know the physical aspect should never be an issue, but I'm just too fucking scared. I hope I can overcome this. It's ruining me.

GIFS Galore

So I tried making a "3D" gif--the kind I often see on tumblr. It's kinda rusty, so spare me.

That, and I also made some Patrick Stump gifs. Why? Because!

//JUST LOOK AT THAT INSANELY ADORABLE AWKWARD SMILE! JUST. ARGH!!!

What's the most important thing for a computer science student? Computer, files and soft wares. But what else can a computer student do if his computer's hard drive suddenly gets corrupted and it's hopeless to retrieve all the files he had saved and all the soft wares he had installed in it? Nothing.

Of all the things that could happen, that particular one did to me. I asked my friend if there's still hope that the files can be retrieved, she said yes. So when my father brought the CPU to the technician(big thanks to him for repairing our PC for free), my hopes were up. But in the middle of waiting, my father called and told me that it was hopeless, that the technician can longer retrieve everything because all the drives were badly corrupted. I cried.

To top it off, our lab instructor gave us a take home exercise to be submitted today at 6pm. Considering that the technician finished reformatting the PC at around 2pm, that I have a class at 3pm, and that downloading all the necessary soft wares needed in compiling and running my program will definitely take time, I cannot make it on deadline. Good thing I was able to do the important part of exercise the night before. I think that's what they say, there's always the bright side. It's still not that big of a disaster after all.

Through the months, I have saved a couple of files, downloaded a couple of songs, videos, and pictures and installed some soft wares in our PC. It was a bit hard for me to let go of those things that took me several months to gather. Consequently, I have to start all over again. Start from trash, from the very beginning.

loooots of humps ahead

I really don't have anything to write(well, type, in this case), I just felt like posting something here. No agenda at all or whatsoever. Actually, I should be studying right now. I have an exam coming tomorrow night, and yet I haven't started browsing through my notes. Really a model student. Haha!☺

Well, my day started pretty good. Unfortunately, I woke up a bit late this morning. Luckily, I wasn't late. How did that happen? Okay, here's the reason. Since I woke up late, I decided not to eat my breakfast because I'm a certified slow-eater during breakfast and second, because aside from being a slow-eater, I also happen to consume a lot of time in taking a bath. And not just that, every Wednesday and Friday, mahina ang tubig. I don't know why. Nakakainis nga eh. So during those days, from the moment I wake up, I would go straight to bathroom and turn on the faucets so I could have enough water when I take a bath.

/*** Flashback. ***/

Yesterday was a Tuesday. I was expecting a delivery from someone. As expected, it arrived. I was so excited to try the garment on. To my dismay, I didn't like the way blouse fitted me. I looked like a giant hanger. And so, I tried several methods to make it look better, at least. I tried to put on a belt. It did look better. But the thing is, I'm not used to wearing accessories(I consider belts as accessories). I'm really disappointed. I really, really want to wear that blouse, but... *sigh* :( I felt like I just wasted my money for no reason. Sayang din yun.

Lessons learned. I will not go online shopping anymore. Kainis lang.