It has been nearly a year and yet, I still feel like an outsider. I know each one of them, but they have no idea who I am or that I even exist. I want to tell him so much how I feel about this, but I can't. It's my fault--I can't face them anyway. I'm too scared. I still have that feeling that he only settled for me. There's a whole lot of better ones out there, but he settled for me. They are a beautiful family, and, yes, I know the physical aspect should never be an issue, but I'm just too fucking scared. I hope I can overcome this. It's ruining me.

Thinking of You - Katy Perry

Oh I just love this song. It's pretty sad, though. A person who's already with someone, but is really longing to be with someone else. Aww.:( There's nothing sadder than not being with someone who you want to be with.

when I'm with him, I was thinking of you...
oh I wish that i, was looking into your eyes...