Yielding ways. Where will you go?

bewildered.

Blogging? Well, it's not really my cup of tea, but since some of my friends have blogs, I was also encouraged to make one. I'm not good in web page designing so I'm not really sure what would this become.

I'm kind of confused right now. I'm really bored with all the things that are happening to me. Same things happening over and over again. I want something new. I want to spice up my life, but I don't know where or how to start. I always stay at home. Home-school, home-school, home-school...so boring!

For me, having low grades since I entered college is normal, but I do want to improve. I want to improve myself in all aspects. But every time I try to do it, it will always be unsuccessful. I'm too lazy! I'm too lazy to do things and I don't have the courage to do the things that I wanted to do. I have low self-esteem. Crap.

911! Could someone lend me a hand?T_T