i was so nervous one minute, but got relieved the next..•_•

This semester, I had to re-take of one my subjects I already took during my very first semester. The story is that my former teacher did not accept my paper since it lacked sources. I only had three, no scratch that, two sources for my paper. Okay, I know, it's all my fault. I did not take that subject seriously and just went as an easygoing student. Why was I an easygoing student then?

1. I still can't get over my high school life. When I was in high school, I didn't study hard. When some of my classmates were burning their eyebrows and studying hard for long tests and quizzes, I was there, watching tv, going to places, hanging out with my friends, and not even opening or visiting the pages of my books. I, unfortunately, carried this attitude until my first semester as a college freshman. But now, I can say I changed a bit. Basta, alam ko. Wag nang umangal.:D
2. I was not aware of the time. Well I actually am, but I did not mind. I thought I still have a lot until I noticed, wala na pala. Okay, that sucks. I am such a good way to illustrate people having mañana habit. And still the bottom line is, time is gold! Use it wisely.
3. I don't know what I should do. Actually, I didn't have a clear idea in mind that time. What should I write? Well that's actually a problem. I suck in writing(if you noticed my posts). I am bad when it comes to organizing ideas and relating them to each other. Even if she accepted my paper, I doubt it if she's going to give me a good grade.
4. Okay! My hands are up! I'm irresponsible. Hindi ko inasikaso. Period.

Just this morning, I finally formulated my research topic. I went to my professor to consult it. I'm so nervous. Her first reaction?

"Masyado tong broad, iha."

So she asked me to narrow it down. Oh no, I can't think of anything that I can extract from my topic. It took me a while to finally show her what I wrote. I patterned it from the examples she always mentions in class. She said it was good and gave me an assignment, she wants me to make a tentative thesis statement regarding my topic. And so, my consultation turned out good. I faced my fear. I'm always afraid to talk to my teachers. I don't know why. Basta ganun eh.

Hay. I went home happy. I overcame something I've been avoiding ever since. It feels good. ;)

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Last week was a total blur! I had three exams in one day. I was only able to review for cmsc21, so I guess I should not expect good results from the other two. :(

Just yesterday, our instructor gave us the result of our exam for last week. I'm am so down, hopeless and very pessimistic about the result. I told myself not to expect too much. And so our instructor laid the papers in front and allowed us to get them ourselves. At first, I can't find my paper. Being unable to find it just prolongs the agony. Then, I finally got it...


I passed the exam!

I can't believe it. Nakapasa ba talaga ko? I'm so happy. But, it's too early to celebrate. This is just the start, a lot is still to come. Pero okay na din, I passed our first exam. :D

Eh yung dalawa kaya? *sigh*

i had to stop myself..

xoxo

you're pushing and pulling me down to you
but i don't know what i want..

now when i caught myself, i had to stop myself
from saying something that i should've never thought
now when i caught i caught myself i had to stop myself
from saying that i never should've thought of you, of you..

you're pushing and pulling me down to you
but i don't know what i want..

♫♫♫

forget about it, girl.

i hate this. same thing happens again and again. waaa!!! ano ba yan. i'm getting really pissed off. i really, really want to get your eyes, but i guess di ko na naman magagawa un. asar! tsk. too bad. too unfortunate. malas. :(

you caught my eyes

Yeah, you caught my eyes and I want them back. Lol. Die romantic. Malandi much? Alam ko. Haha. :))

No comment na nga. Haha. :D
Basta I just wanna see more of you. Sana nga araw-araw eh. But I think that's too much.
Okay na rin yung at least twice a week. Better be contented with kundi mahahalata na ko. :)
Haha. Kanya-kanyang paraan lang talaga. :]

And one more thing, you shine awesomely brighter than anyone does. :]

Hope to see you soon. Define hope. *_*

college na tlga ko.

Oh my, it's 12:30 am on my wrist watch, and yet I'm still awake. I'm still doing my take home exercise in 21. Ang sakit sa ulo.T_T I'm really hopeless.. Di ko na alam gagawin ko. I've tried to modify my code several times, but still mali ang nage-generate niya.

Buti na lang nagchachat na ko. I met several people who are taking up courses that are related to mine. And guess what, I made use of them. I ask them for help in formulating the right algorithm. Tagumpay! Tumama ung sagot nung isa. Nag-run at walang errors. I'm so relieved. Kakaiyak pala pag nakuha na yung tama. :D Again, a very big thanks to you. Babawi ako, promise. :) Formulating algorithms really gives me a headache. >.<

But I should not mind that, there's still a lot to come, more difficult and probably more complex. I should prepare for that. Buti naman ngayon, nakakagawa na ko ng alam ko na talaga yung gagawin at hindi yung hula-hula lang codes. Yun ang gawain ko nung sa 11 eh.

I don't know how to close this one, kaya ganito na lang..BYE! :)