gloomy monday

This summer, as I expected, will be as boring as last year. For some reasons, I decided not to have summer classes so I ended up staying at jome the whole day while most of my friends are busy with their schoolworks. What's worse about this year's summer is the continuous rain. It has been raining for several days now. Another thing is me being broke, yet again. Consequently, I have failed, again and again, to satisfy my craving for shawarma. I've been craving for that particular food since my the start of my second semester last academic year.

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***I still haven't seen him. Sad. It's been almost a month. Crap. I have not given up yet, though. I know somewhere, somehow, sometime, I will still be able to see him, at least. Just a glimpse of him will do. Shocks, what am I saying? I can't believe myself.***

never stay where you're not wanted

Second semester is officially over! It's now time for summer classes. A lot of things has happened. A lot of ups and downs have been experienced, and through all that, I learned a very significant lesson: never stay where you're not wanted. I know, it's a bit unrelated, but I don't care. Since nobody is reading my blog but me, I decided to post some melodramatic stories and thoughts.

I am fund of answering survey questions that are posted on my Friendster account. One day, as I was answering one of the questions, I stopped for a moment. I was answering a question which was easy for me to answer before, but now seemed to be a bit difficult to me now. The question was, when was the last time you laughed so hard? it took me a while to answer that. I suddenly thought, when was that last time I laughed so hard? I noticed that I haven't been laughing a lot recently. Maybe it's because I have been alone for some time. I haven't met my friends for a long time and haven't hung out with them for a while. But then, there are also other people whom I want to be with. There's this person whom I'm very close with, but I haven't also seen for a while.

My mind keeps telling me to go and have some fun with them, but on the second thought, di rin ako mag-eenjoy. Do you know the feeling of being out of place? It's like you're invisible to them. They don't talk to you nor look at you. So why would I go and hang out people like that? I'm the kind of person who don't go with people who treats me like a nobody.

I don't know where this post will go. Basta I'm sure of one thing, I will never, ever stay where I'm not wanted. Di ko ipipilit ang sarili ko sa mga taong ayaw sakin. I'm that thick.